OK, OK, I give up! I am over it. There, now that I have that out of my system I will be feeling better in no time at all. Sorry for the rant but it has to be done. I am over feeling lousy, and I am off to a new day.
I have struggled with some depression recently and I have decided that enough is enough. I remember a cartoon some time ago that fits my situation. A therapist was in a managed healthcare system. He was with a patient in his office and just hauled off and slapped the guy and told him to “snap out of it”. That is what I am feeling now. I just need to snap out of it. Crappy things happen and then you just have to move on. I am tired of feeling lousy, tired of being depressed, and tired of feeling a total lack of accomplishment. I am not the only person that has lost a job. I am not the only person that is struggling financially. I am not the only person that feels lost. But….I am the only person that can do a anything about it.
I have so much that I am thankful for and I have not been good about thinking of those things. Why is it so much easier to dwell on the negative and just ignore the positive? When I look at my life and really begin to put everything into perspective, I realize that I have a lot going for me. I have a husband who loves me unconditionally, I have great kids, I have grandchildren who think I am “the best”, I have a roof over my head, I’m not hungry, I have friends all over the country, and folks who think of me daily. Think of all the people who can’t say the same things.
When life throws you a curve ball sometimes it starts to feel like everything is wrong. I can see that there are lots of “rights” in my life and it is time I started to look at things a little differently. I need to get back to my camera, my writing, and my goals. No more moping around feeling sorry for myself…….PROMISE.